Objects in Space

I find it difficult
to be objective
specially when the question
is me being the object
of your affection

. . .

well then

Sometimes things come to a head
and you get to kick and shout,
sometimes they just fizzle out

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Pools and Puddles

If you pushed me into a pool
on a whim
so I could learn to swim
I'd forgive you
if you are wondering why
I'm not swimming in glory
it's because
you push me into puddles
asshole
and all it does
is get me dirty
and cranky

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Unpause

Now that
drinks break
intermission
half time
holiday
vacation
college
and every other excuse
has come to an end
here I am
back at my console
back in the matrix

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Favorite Worst Nightmare

Screw ups
you and me
different, definitely
but screw ups still
exchanging nightmares
our sorry stories
a few jokes thrown in
Until
of course,
we screwed up
and ran straight into the ground
a good laugh
once shared, between friends.
remember that?

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Idle Hypocrite

You like me, of course
except the way I talk
the things I say
the words I use
the tone I prefer
the way my hands move
and my raised eyebrows
at highbrow connotations
of who here
is the bigger hypocrite
because
you like me, of course
but don't I like you too?

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Playing Favorites.

Songs I love coupled with a synopsis of why I care. The merits of the songs themselves have been written about extensively by better people than me.

1. Paranoid Android - Radiohead

I read once about how very few people actually end up reading books that were meant for them. If I didn't know better, I would think Radiohead makes music exclusively for me. When I was neurotically sorting trough every nineties grunge band I could get my hands on, Radiohead was what I was hoping to find. thankfully neither grunge nor whiny.Paranoid android,  like a lot of their songs, is weird. Are you sad? Are you lonely? Are you messing with my head? Is this a joke? I don't know, but I would like to. 

2. In bloom - Nirvana

Music for me mostly started with Nirvana. Teenagers blaring out Nirvana in the dark of the night is a lot of their target demographic,so no surprises there. I think I would have followed Kurt Cobain around as he toured if I had the chance. But then, I assume more girls following him around would have only resulted in a speedier execution of the shotgun to the head scenario. So, I guess not.
In bloom was Kurt Cobain amusing himself by poking fun of both the song itself and its listeners. Color me extremely amused.

3. Sound of Silence - Simon and Garfunkel

Start to finish this song is sad, but in a very non committal way, like you are seeing sadness happening far away or in a scene in a play. A melancholy sadness, though you wouldn't expect anything less from a song titled sound of silence. I used to listen to it a lot on dark silent nights and laugh because when you find a soundtrack that fitting, life seems hilarious.

4. Lost Cause - Beck

Break up albums are the best. I used to have a Playlist made up of songs from breakup albums alone, of which this was the crown jewel. "Baby you are a lost cause" I would sing that with a good riddance, begone, evil spirit! vibe. Turning to anger would make a reasonable choice, but Beck isn't angry. He's devastated. He turns it into a gut wrenching ballad simply by not overdoing it. After the first time I heard it,  I had it on repeat for a week. In retrospect, probably not very healthy.

5. Ashes of American Flags - Wilco

I spent a full summer listening to a single album by Wilco. The colorfully and somewhat randomly titled  Yankee Hotel Foxtrot. All of it pretty fantastic, of which most are favorites. Ashes is up here because 'I am trying to break your heart' sounds too cheesy and 'Jesus etc' sounds too eccentric. Ashes is also extremely random in its subject matter even if the message is singular. They sing at length about vending machines.I mean c'mon. No really, c'mon sing more of this.Please.

6. Where is my Mind - Pixies

Think city smashing at the end of Fight Club. Also, thank you to the Pixies without whom Nirvana wouldn't have been the same, leading to the lack of a proper soundtrack for my adolescent whining. also for 'Gigantic' - which, Hahahahahahaha

7. Is this It - The Strokes

Is this it is the story of my life. It's the feeling I have the most,dread the most and constantly try to avoid and deny. Being simple of mind, I also assume this is everyone's reaction to anything I do, so really, this is the soundtrack to my life that I would never play.

8. Neighborhood #1 - Arcade Fire

Probably the song here that made it because of musical merit rather than randomly being deeply relevant and enjoyable to me. I like how it sounds, which is all of them don't get me wrong, but this one just because I like how it sounds. Also, congratulations to Arcade fire on excellent debut album naming skills

9. Hey You - Pink Floyd

Yeah, yeah, Pink Floyd happened at some point to me too like everyone else, but while everything  else by them sort of went away, Hey you stayed

10. Hallelujah - Jeff Beckly

This song haunted me for a week one time. After I heard it on repeat for about 10 days, It was the soundtrack of some show I was watching, after I promptly turned it off and managed to dry my tears and tried to get on with my life, some chick from the next building, the next freaking building was blaring it so loudly I had to go check if my personal ghost was doing it.Also I am a sucker for voices slightly shaking as someone sings smoothly about complete emotional devastation. Not that that is weird or anything. Just a musical preference.


P.S. I am baffled by Yesterday not being on this list. Absolutely flabbergasted. What happened? This doesn't make sense.Someone report this!. Basically :great song, sufficiently sad and melancholy, absolute favorite rock ballad from my favorite Beatle. Don't argue.

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